Benzos

          I

This morning, already hot.

Too hot for grass to grow.

But dandelions,

they’ll push their middle

fingers unstoppably up.

And the bills, too,

flip me off.

And the taxes,

the virus,

broken blinds,

old photos in boxes—

and hell, of all things,

sugar ants

queued at the cat food bowl.

All of these

screwing into

my fat gut

while I screw my ass

into a corner of the couch,

watching YouTube

and drinking Diet Coke.


        II

Seven PM in the 

Dairy Queen drive-through:

behind a Dodge,

behind a Chevy,

behind an old Toyota

minivan with brown,

wind-buffed paint

matting in the sunlight.

Thoughts of ice cream

spill out its windows,

with children shouting and

waving their hands

like two plus two

equals four yet again

and everybody

wins a prize.

The thing is old but clean,

probably paid for,

maybe a pirate ship

on its days off.

The tag reads BLT-032.


        III

Unbelievable.

I’ve been idling for a

cookie dough blizzard

for fifteen minutes,

but now need

a BLT on rye—

paired with a viognier,

which I’m guessing

Dairy Queen won’t serve.

Good viogniers

are hard to find anyway.

But if I do find one,

I’ll fix myself

a magnificent BLT

to eat while sitting

on my own shoulder,

unfurled by a

slow blonde pill,

and watching keystrokes

spill across a page.

Wouldn’t that be a life.




Gavin W Sisk

August 2020






Radio

I’m a river,
or perhaps
a glowing vacuum tube.
And she’s a radio tuner.

So I’ll split my face
upon the rocks,
drag amperes full of fish;
amplify Earth’s frequencies,

catch electrons in my fist–
while she, bandless,
strolls the banks,
looking for a switch.


Gavin W Sisk
Dec. 2019

Fear of Dreaming

This flummoxing affliction.
Cries carom off the bedroom door
and box his father’s ears:
an invitation to mad Martians
who march with coffers of roses
with thorns, which he fears.
“It’s bad! It’s ruined! I want it!
It’s gone! I need it! I need it!”
His terror grinds like rusted gears.
This inclement condition of a
knife drawn through his dreams,
of the permanence it shears.
A box of hand-grenades
is in his head, and the pins
fall from his face as tears.

Gavin W Sisk
Nov. 2017

BANG!

If I were a star I would explode! 
And whatever was the matter 
would not matter.
My strafing of the galaxies
with particles and frequencies
would make me God.
Though I might be misunderstood, 
by default I would be right.

Gavin W Sisk

Glass

Young, I raced through summers in bare feet,
through sunburned fields with clover-crazy bees,
over shards of brown glass pushed to mounds
as alters heaped by mad old men cast down

to share their pain with an oblivious child.
Soap, a stiff brush, Mercurochrome, a smile:
salves for cuts from countless careless flights
across the scraps of countless shadowed lives.

Are paper, pencils, promises, and prayer;
silver clouds, the golden rule, our faith in fair;
sex, song, and vows to live in vivid view
of fields unmarred by mounded dreams askew

bars enough against brigades of venial sin
that live and somehow arm and aim to swim
and swarm through windows of our present tense
and change our songs of flight to dissonance?

Gavin W Sisk

Her Fall Virus Wrapped in Fleece

Thursday there were paper clips
transmogrified over a burner:
anealed, quenched; now gifts
offered like tempered chocolate,
traded for chamomile and solitude.
Chemistry with poems in the margins.
The burning log, asthmatic nearly,
sounds like sheets beating on
a distant neighbor’s clothesline–
like Fall through long hair, she says.

Oct. 12, 2014