Fracting God From The Rubble

Yesterday was September 11, 2011: the tenth anniversary of the infamous attacks on the Twin Towers of the World Trade Center in New York City.  My daughter and I plopped on the couch to watch ten-year-old news coverage of ‘911’.  This was one of those finest hours when the news media documented its own integrity and delivered a classic apologia for their in-depth coverage.  That’s fine, except that this finest hour came without a mea culpa for all their bone-headed mistakes and groundless dissemination of fear.  My father would have had a lot to write about this phenomenon of media attempting to pin hindsight to their desperate and lurching foresight.  Oddly, I didn’t see much hindsight framing the desperate fear and hatred that we Americans always want to believe is beneath us, but which we prove again and again is stuck to our shoes like gum.

I am Christian.  If you poll other Christians you’ll find that half believe humans are inherently evil; half believe they mostly serve themselves; and half believe they naturally serve each other.  We Christians may be no better at estimating human proclivities than we are at estimating the sums of simple fractions.  But that’s a moot point when you recall the evil all we Christians have perpetrated on each other in the name of a God we have in common.

Imagine recess in sixth grade on the playground of Saint Almost Elementary School for Boys.  Imagine also the traditional choosing of sides for dodge ball.  Two of the boys, twin brothers named Bub and Bob, are especially smart, fast, big, friendly, and strong.  Of course Bub and Bob are always the first picks for each team.  If you have Bub or Bob on your side, you cannot lose.  Even if the two popular brothers simply watch the game while leaning against the schoolyard fence, the winning team will glorify one of them for their victory.  Neither Bub nor Bob cares much for bragging rights—nor for condemnations for loosing—and neither team would realize if Bub or Bob switched places.  If there were enough boys on the field to form three teams, either Bub or Bob would certainly be the exclusive captain of each.  This is why the boys at Saint Almost Elementary School almost universally choose philosophy as their first major subject in college.  Years ago, one boy did go on to become a civil engineer; but his career ended abruptly after he designed a bridge with three large arches, but specified only enough concrete for two.  Neither Bub nor Bob were nearby to take the blame.

To the real world: I’m not certain what point to make of the evil that all we Christians have swung like righteous swords through the necks of all those who seemed to be catalyzed by lesser gods, and who would otherwise have righteously swung their swords through our own necks.  Hindsight rarely improves foresight, publicly.  Accurate and meaningful foresight—wisdom—is often not what we want.  There is no good reason for news media to tell us what we don’t care to hear, and what advertisers don’t care to subsidize.  Democracy might be at the root of our principles, but capitalism is at the root of our habits.

My father wrote a short poem that sums up wisdom’s precarious place in all our institutions.  This might be one reason he drank cheap scotch.

Epigram For Bedlam

All men are foolish
As all are brothers;
The wise ones know it
And tell the others:
Who take the wise ones
Righteously
And hang them up
For heresy.

                 -John P Sisk

 

Sept. 12, 2011

Rock Wine

I dared to like the Stones.
I first glimpsed that fat red tongue
on a sticker on the bumper of a
blue-finned Bel Air loudly defying
the command of a big-city red light.
The Stones: they drank me like wine.

But is that where you teeter?

Didn’t you sing Born On The Bayou
with a cheap radio tucked to your hip
as you steered the rusty red Reo,
chooglin’ down a silty harvest track
at sundown, to town, to the old silo?
CCR: you drank them like wine.


Aug 1, 2011

 

Suspirations

“Deep breath.
One step at a time.”
my friend gently wrote
from Belize.
I imagined:
from a tilted chair,
with her back
to the sun,
and a girl
at her feet.

I have no lungs.
My feet are lead.
I may be
in the wrong body.
I may be
in the wrong soul.
I may be living
the wrong life.
I may be wrong
about you and me.

There is a giant
electro-magnet
in my closet that
hums for the iron
in my blood.
I’ve opened the door.
It also wants the salt
from my eyes.
But that is all
I have left.

 
July, 2011

 

Fall Field

 

Fall Field

Plowed down fallow field,
Magpie steals and cries.
Dried clod in denim roll,
Morning glory rise.

Black hawk wheels on wing,
Spinning windmill sighs.
Dark smoke drags machine,
Morning glory dries.

 

G W Sisk
April 2010

 

 

Becoming Hanae

Hanae Rose Kurahara Sisk

 

Your mother’s womb fit perfectly.
You couldn’t even turn to leave.
So, the doctor pulled you loose
through a hand-cut hatch,
and changed your blue surprise
into naked crimson cries.

We warmed you in white linen.
Wrapped your shivering soul
as tightly as we dared,
and marveled at your instinct as
you made sense of Mother’s breast.
We named you, Hanae, our best.

 

June 18, 2011

 

Shiz 静

Shizuka Okazaki, 1922 – 2010

First born. Quiet.
Cooled in her mother’s arms
By a pear-scented island breeze.
Walked, ran, worked.
Life, family, duty.
The fields, the hotel.
Clean sheets and old men.
For father and mother,
One foot in front of the other.

Then horse stalls and Minidoka.
Warmed by her mother’s arms
And a tar-scented iron stove.
Walked, ran, worked.
Life, family, duty.
The barbed wire, the garden.
Clean sheets and sentries.
For country and each other,
One day in front of the other.

Then, finally, ordinary days.
Yielding to another’s arms.
Sewing machines and a family.
Walked, ran, worked.
Life, family, duty.
Salt air and gray hair.
Clean sheets pulled to her chin.
Issei, Nisei, Sansei mothers,
One stitch in front of the others.

March 2010

 

Roads Without Signs

One of my favorite subjects to wonder about is the nature of human perception.  I wonder especially about the nature of our commitment of leisure towards exploring and describing perceptions that are fundamentally un-perceivable, such as God and infinity. These endeavors and perceptions are largely the basis of culture.  When we attempt to rationalize these perceptions, we face the same predicament a bird would if it tried to explain air to a fish.  A phenomenologist might write five books as a frontal assault on the subject (and be granted tenure).  A Buddhist monk would just sit very still under a tree and wait for enlightenment to arrive on a breeze.  A poet or artist might accept the task is impossible, and instead tease out meaningful and unexpectedly related perceptions that somehow work their way from the edge of the mind’s retina to its central nerve of comprehension.

Holy Order

Anthropologist: a man
smelling another man’s hands.
Poet: a man
smelling his own hands.
Philosopher: a man
smelling with his hands.
God: among us
smelling our hands.

G W Sisk
Sept. 2010