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About Gavin W Sisk

I am a photographer, artist, writer, tinkerer, baker, dad, and much more. I enjoy measuring things, and I’m easily distracted. When I should be in the garden pulling weeds, I might slip away to my little shop where I’ll clean my calipers and wonder how to use a frequency counter to write a poem. I can name a few of the things that make me smile. Otherwise, I don't recall what truly is my favorite movie, book, or scotch. I also don’t remember which charms lead me to fall in love. These things may all be forgotten, but they are not lost. I know and enjoy them when they visit. I appreciate that life isn’t fair, though I don’t enjoy it. It seems especially unfair that we should have to work so hard for so long, and risk so much, before we can come to accept this fact. I blame it all on opposable thumbs and our ability to measure things.

A Short Prayer

The star of the movie, A Bronx Tale, is a kid who says early on, “The best thing about being Catholic is you go to confession every week and then you start all over.” It did feel like that when I was his age. I thought the secret to living well and getting into heaven was to go to confession regularly. Barring that, in an emergency a quick Hail Mary would work. Trapped in a crashing plane? No problem! I could fully enunciate the prayer in five seconds.

So what did many Catholic kids like me learn? Grace, apparently, decays rapidly after confession, and the only seconds of our lives that count toward salvation are the last five. We have just that much time to convince God to ignore all the preceding seconds, minutes, hours, and days.

Yes, I know. We should figure out how to make every moment count. Too often, though, we develop bulimia in our souls, stuffing more prayers at a time down our throats than our destinies can digest. Or maybe we’re like the goldfish rising to a pond’s surface to gulp a bubble of air–a gas it cannot respire but which offers temporary equilibrium. Perhaps if fish could pray and tell time, they would be like us, and thus be saved.

 

Dec. 25, 2012

 

A Ring

A brass ring hooked and
slipped into her purse,
with the credit cards
and the plastic case
with the oblong pills.
A journey to the center
of her pendulating heart.

French Antilles blue framed
by fuming hurricanes
does not un-map the strain.
Unforgiven adolescence
is a cultivated state,
and brass rings don’t shine
in the bottom of a bag.

 

Nov. 2012

 

A Veteran Scholar

My father served in the military in World War II.  He wasn’t an ambitious, fighting kind of guy; he was an unassuming Shakespeare scholar.  Nonetheless, in 1942, leaving behind a masters degree in english literature and a valuable professorship, he joined the Second Air Force.  He enlisted as a private, the lowest rank available.
Though he kept a low profile by working as a company payroll clerk, he was too well educated to avoid getting bumped up the ladder.  Eventually the adjutant general spotted him and sent him to the Second Air Force chief of staff, General Nathan Bedford Forrest III, grandson of the first General Forrest, who had gained fame by having quite a few horses shot out from under him during the Civil War.
My father accepted his new assignment as assistant chief of staff for military composition.  His primary duty was rewriting outgoing communications for the Second Air Force so that they made actual sense.  Because his duties required accessing and composing top secret documents, it became necessary for him to have a rank somewhat higher than a private.  So, for a few days, he was a corporal.  That’s how long it took for General Forrest to decide he wanted my father to also be his personal aide.
So much for staying low.  Because corporal isn’t a stuitable rank for a general’s personal aide, my father was immediately ushered off to Officer Candidacy School for proper credentialing.  He hadn’t even gotten to be a sergeant.  One week he was safely ensconced behind a desk as a private; the next week he was at OCS learning to be a lieutenant destined to be at the side of a general who was destined to go to battle.  My father could have declined the promotion, but he didn’t.  And as it turned out, it didn’t matter that he hadn’t turn down the dangerous assignment.  Before my father finished his training at OCS, General Forrest got his plane shot out from under him–something that is much more difficult to survive than loosing a horse.
So, with no live general to aid, my mild-mannered father spent the remainder of the war as a sort of officer at large who, in the eyes of some, hadn’t really earned his bars.  After a series of adventures and further promotions, he ended up as a troop commander, a captain, at a US base in British Guyana where not even the iguanas were afraid of him.  His greatest enemies were mildew and dirty water.  That was fine with him.  Unlike some of his friends, he had survived the war and was never in range of angry bullets.  And unlike the iguanas, he could trade the jungle for his home town and his old job teaching Shakespeare at a local university.
Life is good.  For soldiers, life sometimes is good, then interrupted, then anxious, then over.  But mostly, life is good, then interrupted, then anxious, then interesting, then good again.  Here, but for the grace of God and vigilance–even hesitant vigilance–go we.

Nov. 13, 2012

Cats!

I have a cat, Rosie, who is my muse.  Like all cats, she has absolutely no respect for us humans, especially when we’re walking downstairs with armfuls of dirty laundry.  They remember the trick we’ve played with them over and over: dropping them upside-down to watch them twist and flip and land on their feet.  Cats amaze us.  So we shouldn’t be surprised when they scoot down the stairs ahead of us and stop on the third to last step.  They just want to see if we humans can perform the same trick.  If we land on our feet, they’ll grant us peace by allowing us to gently scratch their heads and fill their bowl with kibbles.

Cats are funny.

I want a dog.

 

Nov. 5, 2012

 

From an Image of Dunbeath

ROCK POOLS AT DUNBEATH, By Jean Horseman

 

Impended by November’s damp,
I would brace against a rocky shelf.
In oilcloth, beneath an old sowester–
my back to the wind to guard the ember
of a good cigar; a flask of Highland Park
in a felt pouch hanging from my neck;
a surveyor’s notebook in my left hand
and a stub of a pencil in my right–
I would ask no more from the storm
than synaptic sparks to connect
my words and sensibilities,
perhaps mistaking how what rules the
firmament above writes dreams below.

                 G W Sisk
                 Nov. 2012

 

My Rules

I’m an industrial photographer who sometimes accepts journalism asignments.
I was covering a townhall event some years ago and was trolling for a spot at the back of the auditorium for some long-shots of the Washington State govenor. I lucked into a sweet little pocket right behind the middle-last seats. As I set up my tripod a gravelly voice behind me growled, “Guy, my shot’s blocked!” I turned to see a cheap t-shirt not quite covering the hairy paunch of an unshaved camera operator from a local news crew. Other crews on my left and right had set up farther forward, but they all had dressed as if they had just left factory jobs to get to the event.  In my jacket and tie I stuck out–I didn’t meet code.
I’m a deferential kind of guy who avoids confrontation.  If one of the regular news photographers really needed to share my spot, and asked nicely, I’d have bent over backwards to make extra room. So I looked into the eyes of the hairy Buddha-belly guy behind me and replied, gently, “I guess you’re not in a good spot back there”.
I may not be a veteran photojournalist, but a fifty dollar tie has a few rights over a two dollar t-shirt.
Unlike the scruffy veterans, I was invited to meet and photograph the governor after the event.  They served me good scotch.

Oct. 31, 2012

Deviant Art

I sometimes wonder if creative thought isn’t just the anarchism of our synapses; and, by nurture or nature, works of art are the ad hoc quelling of neural insurrections. In that sense, art could be seen as the product of personal fascist juntas which we allow to beat  insurgent imaginations into the warp and weft of canvas, or regiment emotions into marks at risk of universal misunderstanding, or decode dissonance tight to a staff, or toss bodies gently in the wake of a whale’s dancing tail. They then leave us adrift: supine in a short, bright, cold silence, which we adore but know will kill us if we linger. Perhaps, to sleep, we shoot these little dictators, and raise new insurrections in our dreams.

Oct. 25, 2012

Control Issues

This has been a day of weirdness.
It began after lunch with finding an unopened bottle of SmartWater next to a drinking fountain at a doctor’s office. By itself, that’s a minor non sequitur. Something I could chuckle at and report on Facebook. Then, late in the afternoon, while on my way to a downtown appointment, I found myself behind a late-model car being driven by a man who was behaving even more weirdly than other Seattle drivers.
The elderly fellow was rolling slowly along in the second lane of northbound 99 on the Viaduct. I’m pretty sure he was hoping to change to the right lane, which becomes the only exit from 99 into downtown Seattle. However, every time he started to move to the right his windshield wipers switched on, leading to his jerking the car back into the second lane. Each time he returned to the second lane his windshield wipers switched off. After several aborted attempts, he ran out of room to make the lane change, so he continued north. He had not once used his turn signal. It was not raining.
I’d like to find this hilarious. I can’t because I realize how difficult it is for me to remember which dials on my stove control which burners and what the login password is on my computer. I’m not old, though that shouldn’t make a difference. I’m intelligent. I pay attention. Nonetheless, some things just don’t stick in my memory. My father was the same. The only way he could find his little brown car in a parking lot was to try his key in the doors of one car after another until he found a door that opened. But he wasn’t weird. Neither am I. I’m not that man who can’t figure out his turn signal lever.
Please let me laugh. I really want to laugh. What would Jesus do? What would John Stewart do?

Oct. 23, 2012

Spring Planner

I believe all the frogs that survived beaks and teeth and the long dry summer are now safely ensconced wherever it is frogs ensconce safely.  Here’s to hoping enough of them got laid that we’ll hear much about it next summer.

The Moon

Too soon the moon
reflects a dappled gleam
on clambered hump
of grumping green
declined on lily bed of
sparked genetic dream.
Too soon, too late,
or misdirected swoon?
Shallow noiseless wakes
of willow legs impugn
the creeping grumbling
belly of a patient loon.

               
               Oct. 2012

 

In Memory of a Rat

As my daughter Hana was getting ready for bed this evening, she checked on her elderly pet rat, Chew.  She found Chew had died–earlier in the evening we presume.  She was very old.  We made a proper fuss over her before wrapping her up for temporary storage in the freezer.  We’ll bury her this weekend.
Yes, she’s a rat.  Smaller than a cat and larger than a cricket.  Taxonomy seems to recapitulate psychology, in the sense that the degrees of human psychology we confer upon other creatures often relates directly to certain warm and fuzzy details of their taxonomy, as well as to how close to our dinner tables they rest without us eating them.  I say, in for an ounce, in for a pound.  It might be only make-believe, but it’s also part of how we learn to deal with other lives.
Yes, its a game.  And if you can’t play this game with your pet, how should I trust you’ll play it with me?

 

Sept. 26, 2012