Unknown's avatar

About Gavin W Sisk

I am a photographer, artist, writer, tinkerer, baker, dad, and much more. I enjoy measuring things, and I’m easily distracted. When I should be in the garden pulling weeds, I might slip away to my little shop where I’ll clean my calipers and wonder how to use a frequency counter to write a poem. I can name a few of the things that make me smile. Otherwise, I don't recall what truly is my favorite movie, book, or scotch. I also don’t remember which charms lead me to fall in love. These things may all be forgotten, but they are not lost. I know and enjoy them when they visit. I appreciate that life isn’t fair, though I don’t enjoy it. It seems especially unfair that we should have to work so hard for so long, and risk so much, before we can come to accept this fact. I blame it all on opposable thumbs and our ability to measure things.

Antecedents

Analog

To all amateur epistemologists and metaphysicians: what is up with my posting of that word?

In this so-called digital age, this golden age of content, has anything changed?  Do we now need to walk into our gardens once a month and kick a big black rock with our bare feet just to prove that we are still here, or that the rock is still there, or that the argument is still worth risking a broken toe, or at the very least, to cause our busy neighbors to consider: that monkeys have hands should give us pause?  (Not that anyone’s answer but my own may matter.  (Not that anyone’s answer but your own may matter.  (Not that anyone’s answer may matter.  (Matter?))))

Matter!  What precedes that?  And from that’s antecedent, what leads us to proceed on the only imaginable course from past to present, to analogs and metaphors, concretions and abstractions, physics and metaphysics, poetry and art, good and evil, living and dying?  What Tower of Babel have we built, or thought to have built, that has fallen for want of more scaffolding than twenty-three pairs of chromosomes could erect?

Ontogeny recapitulates ontology.  That is the monocle we wear as we collect and connect pretty shells into necklaces which we then declare were designed by antecedents to metaphors of analogs, which we are several chromosomes shy of what is needed to unstring, which were perhaps indeed already strung, which may never be unstrung, which defy us, and which none the less elevate us and define our existence.

The antecedent of ‘it is…

Oct. 19, 2011

Jobs Well Done

We’ve been calling this the Computer Age.  But computers just chew data and convert it to sugar and waste (as far as we can judge the difference).  Garbage in; garbage out.  For centuries we’ve gladly paid for garbage from exclusive producers.  Whoever owned a press also owned a piece of culture.  Now we make our own garbage, and gladly pay for it.  This is the Content Age!

“Pa!  The roof and the pigs and all the corn have spun up into a white tornado!  Shouldn’t we go in after them?”

Seeing that a few billion of us chimps have recently acquired magic typewriters, I suppose we could hope and work to see something good come of it.  Steve Jobs died trying.

 

 

Oct. 5, 2011

 

 

Fracting God From The Rubble

Yesterday was September 11, 2011: the tenth anniversary of the infamous attacks on the Twin Towers of the World Trade Center in New York City.  My daughter and I plopped on the couch to watch ten-year-old news coverage of ‘911’.  This was one of those finest hours when the news media documented its own integrity and delivered a classic apologia for their in-depth coverage.  That’s fine, except that this finest hour came without a mea culpa for all their bone-headed mistakes and groundless dissemination of fear.  My father would have had a lot to write about this phenomenon of media attempting to pin hindsight to their desperate and lurching foresight.  Oddly, I didn’t see much hindsight framing the desperate fear and hatred that we Americans always want to believe is beneath us, but which we prove again and again is stuck to our shoes like gum.

I am Christian.  If you poll other Christians you’ll find that half believe humans are inherently evil; half believe they mostly serve themselves; and half believe they naturally serve each other.  We Christians may be no better at estimating human proclivities than we are at estimating the sums of simple fractions.  But that’s a moot point when you recall the evil all we Christians have perpetrated on each other in the name of a God we have in common.

Imagine recess in sixth grade on the playground of Saint Almost Elementary School for Boys.  Imagine also the traditional choosing of sides for dodge ball.  Two of the boys, twin brothers named Bub and Bob, are especially smart, fast, big, friendly, and strong.  Of course Bub and Bob are always the first picks for each team.  If you have Bub or Bob on your side, you cannot lose.  Even if the two popular brothers simply watch the game while leaning against the schoolyard fence, the winning team will glorify one of them for their victory.  Neither Bub nor Bob cares much for bragging rights—nor for condemnations for loosing—and neither team would realize if Bub or Bob switched places.  If there were enough boys on the field to form three teams, either Bub or Bob would certainly be the exclusive captain of each.  This is why the boys at Saint Almost Elementary School almost universally choose philosophy as their first major subject in college.  Years ago, one boy did go on to become a civil engineer; but his career ended abruptly after he designed a bridge with three large arches, but specified only enough concrete for two.  Neither Bub nor Bob were nearby to take the blame.

To the real world: I’m not certain what point to make of the evil that all we Christians have swung like righteous swords through the necks of all those who seemed to be catalyzed by lesser gods, and who would otherwise have righteously swung their swords through our own necks.  Hindsight rarely improves foresight, publicly.  Accurate and meaningful foresight—wisdom—is often not what we want.  There is no good reason for news media to tell us what we don’t care to hear, and what advertisers don’t care to subsidize.  Democracy might be at the root of our principles, but capitalism is at the root of our habits.

My father wrote a short poem that sums up wisdom’s precarious place in all our institutions.  This might be one reason he drank cheap scotch.

Epigram For Bedlam

All men are foolish
As all are brothers;
The wise ones know it
And tell the others:
Who take the wise ones
Righteously
And hang them up
For heresy.

                 -John P Sisk

 

Sept. 12, 2011

Chime Runner

Tonight I watched Blade Runner, the sci-fi classic and E-Ticket ride through metaphysics & epistemology. This was the ‘Final Cut’ version I hadn’t before seen. I couldn’t figure out what was different about the sound track until I realized I was also hearing the wind chime on my front porch. The chime had been quiet until recently, when I rehabilitated it by adding a shiny hard-disk platter as a wind-catcher.

The irony was hard to ignore: a metal disk comprising thousands of visions, thoughts, and memories–unverifiable except for the seemingly disorganized notes it beat through the screen door.

There might be a strange Cartesian circle somewhere here to consider. Just as likely, there is a good ghost story, which would be easier to write. Maybe Stephen King is just a frustrated existentialist.

 

Sept. 4, 2011

 

Rock Wine

I dared to like the Stones.
I first glimpsed that fat red tongue
on a sticker on the bumper of a
blue-finned Bel Air loudly defying
the command of a big-city red light.
The Stones: they drank me like wine.

But is that where you teeter?

Didn’t you sing Born On The Bayou
with a cheap radio tucked to your hip
as you steered the rusty red Reo,
chooglin’ down a silty harvest track
at sundown, to town, to the old silo?
CCR: you drank them like wine.


Aug 1, 2011

 

Suspirations

“Deep breath.
One step at a time.”
my friend gently wrote
from Belize.
I imagined:
from a tilted chair,
with her back
to the sun,
and a girl
at her feet.

I have no lungs.
My feet are lead.
I may be
in the wrong body.
I may be
in the wrong soul.
I may be living
the wrong life.
I may be wrong
about you and me.

There is a giant
electro-magnet
in my closet that
hums for the iron
in my blood.
I’ve opened the door.
It also wants the salt
from my eyes.
But that is all
I have left.

 
July, 2011

 

Smelling Out The Truth of My Genetics

According to Gregor Mendel, the geneticist, we each ought to have received the particulars and peculiarities of our individual noses from persons directly related to us in some previous generation.  I have a ‘Sisk’ nose.  But whose Sisk nose is it?  I finally figured out that I have Uncle Bill’s nose.

My family will point out that Uncle Bill was a missionary priest whose nose genes were likely not directly related to mine.  I think, though, that I’ll keep his nose for the time being, since he is no longer using it and because it functions pretty well.  But what genetic rules explain how it ended up on my face?

I suppose most priests ponder at some point the irrelevance of Mendel’s peas to their genetic situation.  After all, they have sacrificed their genetic potential for a higher, eternal cause.  Did my uncle ever wonder, as he tied the white cord around his brown Franciscan robe, “Who will get my nose?”  I guess it isn’t too much to ask.  And I suppose most priests understand–and even pray–that such rhetorical questions are never purely rhetorical, when asked by someone who should be in close communion with God.

I am less in communion with God than the average priest, but my question about my nose is no more rhetorical.  And I think I’ve discovered a nice Catholic answer that even Sarah Palin could like.  With apologies to Mendel and Nietzsche, I theorize that God, in a gesture of thanks to priests and nuns for their vows of chastity, has reserved a means of trading peas among our pods.  This may sound simplistic.  But we’re talking about God; it doesn’t need to be complicated.

So, I have Uncle Bill’s pea–and it smells.

I mean, I smell with Uncle Bill’s nose.

God knows what I mean.

June 28, 2011